They’re yours, those last few years of doings. Whatever they were filled with, you felt quite something. Whatever you were planning, you planned, and that’s just that. Why ever look at them as boxed-up resources in expectation of sprouting and finally elevating you to the heights of peaceful observation and the air that stands still. They’re yours, for sure, and they are that thing that would never run away.
You have an education. There is no need to neglect it, or deny it, or imagine it was a more perfect, more fruitful education. You have it, and this is exactly what you need right now. Remind yourself that it’s yours.